vent a child who is stupid

MY NAME Alfie a boy aged 19 years has been 19 years of my life with great suffering fraction WRITE MY ANGER IN CAPITAL LETTERS BECAUSE MY PARENTS TO GIVE A SENSE THAT NEVER WAS MY AFFECTION CONSIST OF 4 brothers, BUT WILL LOVE EVERY TASTE GIVEN VERY DIFFERENT WHEN ASKING FOR MY brother NEW MOTOR PROVIDED DIRECTLY ASKING ME BUT WHEN USED MOTOR PROVIDED did not even do not know I also do not understand where my mistake on my parents if I was not worthy of its status as a child, very much a sense of affection that is given dad I against I felt I wanted to cry but did not know I had to complain to anyone, when I watch television very much at home I see the compassion that emanated from countries out there. I was living in INDONESIA famous with hospitality but the attitude was not there at all I meet in my family 'I really do not want the public to know this but my dad Apah can make my bluff when I just want to buy used bike and I never asking for something new.Especially when I meliaht on numerous television programs about family films, played by famous artists, usually movies Indian Country, U.S., Germany, and the state arab.diman a love between family really touched my heart, am I out of luck or what? or is my stupid like once I feel compassion for kalain anyone at any time if they wish me happy so I just lift your kids, who want to give a little love to me. from little my parents always fighting with other sharp objects and even though I still do not sit on the bench sekoah but I already understand and pray to god for my parents divorce and re-establish relationships and bahagaia like before I was born. Maybe this is just my type in an internet and very meaningful to me even though I was still sad. but I'm sure there are still those kind-hearted and willing to give a little taste of love and happiness, I've tried to kill himself but was always on the block by Mamah me but I think if you die like that there is no point I just want to live for other people membahagikanbut why i never happy until-until I cry and think if it's god ugly predetermine my god please take my life and it will wait until waktunya.tidap me anything I was not happy in a world without compassion but I want very happy at the side of my god amen.